Superb Experiences

            I gained so many experiences this school year. These experiences turned into learnings that I could apply in everyday life. I sometimes made mistakes. Yet, this does not stop me from reaching my goal. In fact, these mistakes helped me. We can’t learn without mistakes.

             The things that I like the most in this English class is I got to learn something new. Almost everything are first times, the blogs, oration, Shakespearean masterpieces, Divine Comedy, jazz chant, choral recitation a lot more. I really enjoyed these performances. Although, these are no easy to master, with the help of the class and ourselves, we got through it.

            Other things that made the class special are the questions that are difficult to answer. These questions made me really think for the answers. I still remember this question, “Will you choose a life without a mother but with a father or a life with a mother but without a father?” Some really got teary-eyed. That is when I realize that both parents are important in my life. Another question, “Am I special?” This time the whole class went silent like everybody is thinking for the answer. Actually it is my first time to hear that question and I really don’t know the answer. But as the discussion goes, I realize that everybody is special, that I am special. “What makes me happy?” is another question that I am still looking for the answer. I believe that to answer this question, I must know myself first, which is I am not yet accomplishing. The last question that made the 3N room tremble is, “Who in this classroom would you sacrifice?” This is a really tough question that a very brave student in the class can answer. To that one person that answered the question, hands off to your courage. Honestly, when I heard this question, I look at everyone’s faces, weighing each. But at the end I got no answer. Yes, everyone has weakness but if we come together as one I know we get strong enough to face whatever challenges we encounter.

            These are just some great experiences that I can recall. I know that these all contribute to my personality as a student, a daughter, a friend and a citizen. I hope that this will not be the last batch to experience such great things but also the next batches for the next years.

Timalan Lontoc,               
Naic, Cavite                       
February 13, 2014                          

Dear Pechie,

            How are you? I hope that you are there doing your personal things. Let me start this letter with an apology. I am serious about doing this and keep that in mind. Anyway, I am sorry. Sorry for so many bad things that I did to you that if I list it, I am sure that this page is not enough. Sorry because I always tease you. I am apologizing for calling you names that are not pleasant to hear, I know you know what I am talking about. Also, I am sorry for making fun of some ways of you. Maybe it is just sometimes, you really reach the limit and I can’t help but laugh on them. I am not only talking about the way you do things but you, yourself. I’m sorry I always doodle on your papers especially those that are important to you. Sorry for scribbling things that just in my mind and put it your notebooks. I know that sometimes I do it too much so I am very sorry. I’m sorry that I always ask you to give me paper because I don’t have one. If I would estimate the sum of all the pad papers I ask from you, it will make up a whole pad or even two. But I know you are just generous, so thank you also. Most of all, sorry I always depend on you and at times being a little kid you always need to look at. Again, sorry for all those things written here or not. Also, sorry in advance for the incoming bad things that I will do and thank you, as well for the good things you made.

Your friend,
Kaye

I am Special

                Being special is not being out of place. It is not being isolated. Being different, maybe. Being special for me is being unique from other people. Being special is having this particular skill that is unusual from other people.

            Me, myself I believe that I am special. That is, aside from having a unique finger print. As what I have said, being special is not being the only person in the world that can do a particular thing. I am special because I have a specific skill. If I am determined enough to do something, I can do it. But being my ‘determined self’ is not easy to attain. I could be determined if someone treat me so small and said that I could not do something. In that way I feel so little of myself. I feel like a baby that could not do something but cry to her mom and ask for milk. And I know I am not that kind of person so in able to prove that I am not that person I will do it with my all best. I could also be determined if someone encourage me and show me consequences that I will experience if I did not do my work. This way I do my best to accomplish those tasks the same way not to fall into the consequences.

            Being very productive in the last minute also makes me special. Even though I am in cramming, I still can do the same things and sometimes those same things but better. I think pressure is effective for me in accomplishing things unlike other people.

            I can also say I am special or different in the way I am reading novels. Sometimes I am very hooked up with the scene that I forgot everything else. I forget that I am only reading a novel not in the novel itself. Although, that happens to other novel lovers too, I still think that is a special skill. Another unique thing that I do when it comes to reading, I don’t forget to write a quote in the novel that I find very interesting. 

            I believe that every organism in this world is special. The dogs, cats, snakes, rats and even plants are special. If these creature I mentioned are all special so why not humans? Every man in this world is special in their every own ways. Even identical twins are unique from each other. What makes us special? Being ourselves is.

Regret: A Nightmare

            There is this feeling that you just want everything to be an awful nightmare. Then, all you want is to wake up from that nightmare. Lastly, you wish that everything will go away. This is, for me, one great definition of regret.

            One thing I regret is being a girl with the tinniest confidence. That is for me, the most thing I really regret. Being there in front of people and then here are my knees trembling and my words stammering whenever I speak. I hate that kind of me. I who do not believe in myself that I can do something. I who knows nothing but to think negatively.

            There is one experience that I report a certain topic in front of the class. Then, there I went in front and stammer in my words. I felt so nervous that I forgot my report. My whole report on where my grade depends on in that particular subject. I hate myself at that point. The worst part is I was embarrassed in front of my classmates and my teacher. I was very disappointed and ashamed of myself at that point.

            One way, I think so that will never happen again is to master my report. My mistake there is not only my lack of confidence but also not mastering my report. Another way is to avoid being nervous. Once you get nervous, it goes on until you totally forget the thing you will do, in my case, my report. Another way is to practice self-confidence. I think a way to gain confidence is to practice to be in front of people. A way to solve your problem is to face the problem itself.

A Letter to God

Dear God,

            Thank you for giving me two incredible parents who always cares. Thank you for my parents who always loves us unconditionally. Thank you for giving me parents who support us as long as they could. Thank you for these parents that no matter what happens, always know what is good for us. The parents who never give up on us, their children, no matter what we do. Thank you for these parents who taught us what is wrong and right, and to be good citizens.

            I apologize at times that I disobey my parents. I apologize that sometimes I get angry to them in a nonsense reason. I apologize that I make sin not only to them but also to you.

            I wish that you give what they deserve for being such great parents to us. Please give them good health as what they give to us while they care. Please guide them to the right things like how they guide us. Most of all, teach them how to be good citizens of Yours, of the country and of the whole world as what they taught us.

            Please let them feel that I love them though I don’t say it directly to them.

Your loving daughter,

Kaye